I’m really glad I found this blog, I needed something like this. I’m in a LDR right now and let me the first to say, I never pictured myself here…
I met Adam on Tumblr on a random day when I followed him and he sent me a generic “Thanks for the follow :)” kind of message. We started kind of talking through messages but it was small talk and whatnot. He asked for my number and I said no, that I wasn’t big on giving it out on Tumblr and if he wouldn’t mind us talking on the site for awhile first. He respected it and was happy to do so. We talked for weeks but I was sort of talking to someone else and definitely not looking to start anything long distance. However, Adam never pressured me to do anything and so we started chatting on Skype, but not even on camera yet. We talked daily and then one day decided to actually cam. I was so nervous! It was a little awkward and I didn’t know what to think! But soon we started to cam weekly and then it became like every other day and finally, everyday. It wasn’t until about 2-3 months down the line until I actually gave him my cell number! We texted as much as we could but he was paying off a big phone bill and couldn’t talk on the phone and had to text through Kik. But through skyping and texting, my feelings started to change. It wasn’t quick I have to admit. I was so stubborn and hesitant to fall for someone who lived so far away. He’s in Arizona and I’m in Ohio.
But we had sooo much in common and at the same time, I had never met someone like him. And he was the most kind, sweet guy I had ever talked to. I had never really had relationships, I was more of a…”whatever I can get” kind of girl who ended up having more feelings for a guy than he felt towards me. I didn’t realize what that was doing to me until Adam brought it up. He has a way of seeing through me and seeing myself better than I can at times. He really changed me. From the beginning he has said how beautiful I am and how amazing I am. He’s made me feel better about myself and changed how I see myself both inside and out.
It took awhile for me to agree to be his girlfriend, at the time only 2 of my friends and my sister knew about him. The whole distance thing was something I was totally against from the beginning, I was a skeptic, and I fought my feelings for him because of it. But when it changed, I had hooked up (mildly) with a old fling of mine and I felt NOTHING. I didn’t even want to kiss him after we started making out, I felt empty and guilty. I knew then that Adam had my heart but I was still keeping him away out of fear. But after we started dating, my feelings only got stronger. If I had a checklist for a perfect guy, he fits almost everything on the list. He’s become my best friend and my love.
We’ve had at times a shaky relationship because of the distance, but everyday we are trying to get to each other. My parents were shocked when they found out and my dad is still extremely against it, though my mom has come around. She and I were planning to fly out to AZ to meet him next month since they would not let me ever go alone, but it fell apart for financial reasons. It’s a touchy subject with my friends too, and it worries me a little. It’s hard when you feel like no one else can understand. But I have fallen in love with him. I’ve stayed up until 8am on some nights talking to him on skype and the phone. I’ve fallen asleep while on the phone and skype, too! He treats me better than any guy ever has and has given me his whole heart. It’s an amazing feeling. And we have been sending each other things in the mail which definitely helps a little. He made me a paracord bracelet and I gave him a cute pillow with my perfume sprayed all over it :)
Somedays, I get doubtful and unsure of where the future will take us. He has told me that he wants to marry me and I’m the perfect girl for him and I wonder if we’re moving too fast. We’re going on 4 months of dating right now. He’s trying to become an EMT and then a firefighter and I’m in school about to graduate this spring. I’ve talked about chasing this crazy dream of mine in Tennessee and he said he’d be willing to move there to be with me. It’s difficult! This has got to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But he keeps me hopeful. We both believe that there was a reason for us meeting and we are in each other’s lives for a reason. I know we were meant to fall in love. I’m very happy, he makes me feel so special and now I can’t imagine my life without him.
I can’t wait to meet him. It kills me inside to not even be able to cuddle up with him and watch a movie. But I love him and I know he loves me so much. I never wanted to do something like this but he’s made it all worth it. <3